abuse, violence and the challenges of grow- ing up in a gang-infested environment. I was exposed to most of the emotional trauma that those experiences produce. At 14, I was expelled from the entire Los Angeles Unified School district. By sheer grace, a judge allowed me to move to Phoenix, Arizona--under strict probation until I turned 18. there. When I arrived, my father decided we all needed to attend church as a family, so he forced me to attend a small church almost every day of the week. I was very reluctant and argued about going, but my father remained insistent. made me feel welcome, like part of the group, even though I did not know God the way they did. They would call and invite me to events throughout the week, like going to the park and Bible studies. Pretty soon I was hanging out with this youth group on a daily basis. The youth leader, Mario Ruiz (who later also became an officer) was the pastor's son, and he would offer to pick me up and drop me off every time there was an event. toward God and their ability to pray to God and read the Bible so fluently and understand it. I grew curious about what it meant to know God and how that was even possible. with an altar call. After about the altar every service. I would pray for God to meet with me and prove that He was real. first time I experienced peace. I had lived in my childhood storm for so long that I didn't know there was anything outside of it. On this night Jesus spoke into my heart and told the storm to be still. This introduced hope, joy and a life I didn't realize was possible for me. I knew that I was changed forever. to share it regardless of the outcome. I knew the call was to full�time ministry, but I tried to fulfill it by administration, attempting to answer the call halfway by writing checks and help- ing in ministry when I was my heart. I knew I wasn't doing what I was made to do. I tried as hard as I could to straddle the fence of keeping my job, income and freedom while being involved in ministry, but God required nothing less than total surrender. I finally accepted the call to fulltime ministry through officership. ironic that in our total surrender we have felt the most freedom to do what we were created to do. For This |